Oh this one is dark, so very dark... Written for a truly special girl that I knew from another chatroom, she would have been 'the one' if my life had been different. The poem reminds me of a week we spent together which I will treasure always, even though thinking about it makes me sad as well. The one that got away... :(
You're the only one for me
A reason for me to exist
A dream lover that can never be
A soulmate who I never kissed
I can feel it all sliding away
The words I speak are of no use
A fantasy that's dying anyway
I'm standing with my neck in the noose
And all it takes for me to die
Is being born into this world of pain
I lie here and look into your eyes
And I can feel a love that's in vain.....
Cos you want my body and soul
Well you got one for eternity
This shell just covers the hole
Of a heart broken in three.....
Trapped inside a useless cage
You want me to fly but I can't walk
Sitting alone weeping tears of rage
So mad at myself I can barely talk
And I know I should let you go
Let you live your life to the max
But my selfish thoughts are so
That I wanna ignore all the facts
And follow an impossible dream
Leave this place and be with you
If you were here I'd almost seem
Like everyone else that you knew.....
Cos you want my body and soul
Well you got one for eternity
This shell just covers the hole
Of a heart broken in three.....
When you came into my existence
And I wanted you oh so badly
Your heart put up no resistance
How I fell in love with you madly
And this rose-coloured affair
Seemed like all I ever needed
Words of love flying through the air
Warning signs that went unheeded
I can't tell you the way I feel
Alone here in my bed
In my heart nothing's gonna heal
Maybe I’d be better off dead.....